Jan 8, 2013

I Confess.....

My name is Vicki and I am an A.D.D.I.C.T


WHAT HUH! Yep it was a shock to me as well...here's how I figured it out....

So you know I'm on this new "clean eating" kick (well mostly clean - balance people BALANCE)
and if you didn't, well you can read about it HERE.

Anyhooo...when my sister and her fiancee dropped by I decided I could manage baking them some Totally Chocolate Choc Chip Cookies (nothing clean about those babies).

So before I go ahead and tell you what I did....I have to justify myself. I had not eaten anything sugary for the entire week....an ENTIRE WEEK. No chocolate, no sugary drinks, no sugar in my food, no ice-cream.....ZIP... NADA ... NOTHING!

So I take the first batch of cookies out of the oven and put them on a tray to cool. They smelled like heaven. I had used wholemeal flour to make them (instead of white) and stevia instead of sugar, and thought I would have a little crumb just to make sure they tasted right....(I mean I can't be serving rubbish to my guests can I??) 

That one crumb hit my tongue and triggered something in my brain, and that was it...
something took over me and I ate half the batch in less than 5 minutes......my sister was like 

"What the???" 

And here I am sitting on the sofa with guilty crumbs on my lips, and a big sugar drunk smile on my face! (quickley followed by "OMGoodness" what is wrong with me??)

I AM A SUGAR JUNKIE!

Okay, so maybe I already knew this. I mean the signs were there.
That's one of the reasons I embarked on this healthier lifestyle plan, because I wanted to break the hold that sugar has over me. Maybe I thought it was be as simple as going "cold turkey", but it would seem NO.

It would appear I have a larger problem than I first thought if a tray of biscuits is not safe in my presence, not to mention the block of chocolate that is hiding in the back of the pantry!

So now what? Do I try to continue with cold turkey and start over, or do I accept that I'm a junkie and allow myself to have small doses.....but then, am I going to be a raging sugaraholic and get "sugar drunk" each time I have some.

Oh what to do, what to do??

So now I'm turning to all of you, any suggestions?? Any of you also struggling with this??

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3 comments :

  1. Balance, I say. Cold turkey may cause you to cave all the time. A little bit of choccie's OK, surely;) x

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  2. lol...I have to agree Kim. The tiny bit of choccie keeps me sane (well sorta!). Hope you guys aren't anywhere near Brogo today xx

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  3. And sanity is a must while we are homeschooling mummas. LOL We weren't at Brogo but friends were. Thankfully all's well now. How scary was all of that though? Don't want to go through that again in a hurry. Poor people who were so close to it all.xx

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